Merry Xmas...

Merry Xmas you all. Hope you all had a wonderful Xmas and hope you all spend it with those you love. For those who have been working on Xmas... I fell your pain, I too were one of those idiots that have been working on Xmas and I have to say that this was no fun what so ever.

But with all bad things comes good along on the sidewalk. I have received the best news or must I say the best Xmas gift that could have hoped for. It's something I have been waiting for, for so long and now finally it has happened. Well let me spill the good news out.... I'm becoming an uncle in 8 months.... Yippeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm more excited about this small little creation of live than my sister and her hubby. Although they have been trying for quite some time. I can't wait.....

Sorry for the absence from my side. I've been working non stop from 07:00 till 21:00 / 22:00 this whole month and haven't had time to post anything or to see my good friends. Hope all is well there. I'm all alone in our technical department so idiot grems have to do all the darn work and I just cant keep up. I'm so tiered and I need some time off. Today was my first off day I had this month and it was so nice just to lay around and do nothing, and I mean nothing.

But this all have made me to decide to go to another occupation. This security thing wont work for me any more and it's time to move on. I'm having a meeting with a great business man just after the 28th of this month and hopping that it will go good. If it does I'll be starting my own thing and I'm dragging my dad with me into this great and wonderful opportunity.

Also in January I'm starting a media studio with some other ppl. Seeing that we have already have a few clients we have decided to push it ahead and see how it turns out. We have an semi agreement to do a full page on an wonderful "Elanor" GT500 Mustang... but that will only happen in end 2008 if we are lucky otherwise it will only be in 2009. Elanor have cost up to R 400 000 till this stage and she are still only spares laying around. He original imported motor will arrive some stage in Feb 2008. Wish it was mine....

Have a great holiday for those who have one... And for those working, Don't work to hard. It could kill you, I'm almost there.

Till next time.... Be safe and look after your self and your extended attachments.

Blessed Be!!

Life's own curse to human-kind...

As we all live our own life's, we all set goals to reach some high some easy to achieve but all necessary as life mostly exist out of that we want to have, want to achieve and most importantly what you desires. Life consist out of a number of desires that we want. We all desire to have something, for some it might just be a fancy sports car, for some it might be love and for some it might money and power.... but we all have desires and we all set our goals in life to meet up with them in the end.

For instance... I have desired a Nissan Skyline for years now, I felt in love with this tar eating beast in the times of the GT-R 32 racing some desert runs on a sport channel of Coloursat - Time's before DSTV hit the market. After that I moved a level up to the R34 and now I'm still desiring that Little beauty.... My dream car. So, I in life are trying to get a good paying work so that I could buy that Skyline for my self and just enjoy the fruits of my life. Some day I will have my Skyline and that I'm sure off.

What ever you desire you will try to get it and in the end you will live your life to get there. To reach you desire and to life your desire. But life knows about all this Little desires as we are just human, life has its own way of counter your goals. Now everyone wants to be rich and everyone wants to have power, that's just part of living. We all desire more money than we can spend.

But what happens when you reached your goal?? How does your life change?? And what after that??

Life will always counter the fact of satisfaction, You'll never truly be satisfied with your life. I had I challenge a while ago... And as some might know I love a challenge in my life and I normally do achieve my challenges and I normally will not give up before I won. But I'm sad to say it never ends there, life has his own curse upon mankind and as soon as you reach your goal the curse kicks in.

The curse of wanting more.... I can speak for my self and I can say that I'm one of those that always want more. I have the "perfect" work, okay so I don't always love my work but who does?? Most of the time I enjoy what I do and I love my working hours, I can't really say that my salary aren't enough as for my age, I don't think there's many young people at my line of income... Yes I know a few but overall for my age most are a lot smaller. So I should be happy and satisfied.... But I'm not, I want more.... More money more power....

The challenge I had, well I succeeded to a level where I realized this is not gonna be enough for me.... I had it wrapped in my hand, I only had to close my hand and I would have won the challenge... But I stopped and thinked what then. I'm playing with more than just my life here and I know as soon as I had it I would have let it go.... Searching for more, That's just me. Always wanting more and more out of what life have to over me.

I had a love once where I can say I was happy, really I was happy although there were a few things I didn't agree with but I loved her with my whole heart and I still love her. It's been more than three years now since I left her but still I love her and I'll always will. But I was stupid and I wanted more... She just weren't enough for me. My standards are unfortunately high and I don't believe I will ever meet someone with those standards, I'll have to learn to live with less....

Okay back to the point... As a living been we will always want more in life... you'll reach your goal and then you'll just raise the stakes wanting more. So I guess the real question are when do you draw the line?? When can you say that your satisfied with your life although you know you are searching for more.

Can you really say I'm satisfied?? So you love your man/lady with your whole heart.... But don't you sometimes feel like "I want more" ?? It's like catching fish... You do all the work to prepare your line, you throw it into the water and you wait patiently for the fish to bite, when it does you fight the darn bugger to the shore and you take it out of the water... So now you won?? as look at the fish you think " this one are to small" and try again to catch a bigger one.... Never satisfied.....

Would you rather have everything or would you rather have less and still wanting more??

Best directions for use

I live in a place where I have no access to get the nature's best creation close enough to my baby to get the thing clean and as I she's a wonderful black beauty the cleaning should be done on a regular schedule or she looks like a rusted black beast. Now I have found this as a huge problem due to the fact that I only live for her at this stage. Well for as long as I'm single but she would always be one of the top things in my life.

So I went out to search for a greatly minded company that could assist me in my terror of dirt and after a month I found them. They are situate close by me in the echo 4x4 business center and they had the solution that I need. The solution are quite expensive but to get all those dust bugs away with ease and to give her the look of a new born again.

Oh don't we love technology.... They call it the waterless formulation and it works like wonders....
Instant clean with no water what so ever.... Yes its a waterless car wash & wax spray can. You would not believe it as I didn't believe a thing they said until we tested it on my company car off course.

It cleans, it wax and it remove all those small scratches on the body.... The irritating nail scratches at the door handles and it shines like my baby should and all this with out any water and soap.

But the real reason for this post are not for advertising the product but I thought that their directions for use where very original and properly the best I have ever read.

Fast Wax.
1. Park in a shaded area (why work in the sun?)
2. Rinse of excess dirt/mud (usually found on the infield on Sunday)
3. Turn on your favorite radio station to set the mood.
4. Spray on a light coat on a small section
5. Using a terry cloth towel GENTLY (work smart not hard)
6. Allow 10sec to dry
7. Use a soft micro towel. Lightly buff.

Carpet & Upholstery
1. Remove personal items such as loose change, floor mats, cereal, chicken nuggets, french fries and crackers.

Touchless Tire Shine
1. Spray an even coat on tires and even wheels wells
2. Stand back and admire your work

Okay so that's all the pro's now for the cons that bugs me a bit.

The warnings on the tire shine....
1. Danger! Extremely flammable
2. Do not Smoke - extinguish all flames, pilot lights and heaters - Turn of stoves, electric tools and appliances, and any other source of ignition

The warning on the carpet & upholstery
1. Warning: This product contains chemicals know to the state of California to cause cancer and birth defects or other reproductive harm

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It's alive....

Hay there ppl.... Yip I'm still alive and kicking... I know I have been quite for a long time but that's gonna change soon. I'm almost finished with my big coding project and it was loaded on there internal server today soon to bee loaded to the net, Just have a Few small things to adjust and add then I'm finished. My foot are in the door way and the next will bring in some needed food to my hungry pet named wallet.

On top of that after struggling for six months for my boss to bite at my working straggedy it has just realized. As off tomorrow my working days will be as I like to call it a short working day. I got them to change my working hours from 7am to 3pm... That will mean that I'll be home at 3:10pm every afternoon, and still get up at the same time I normally do.

I have been defeated too at 3 months of playing travian. They have taken one of my main villages over and that hurts allot. Reason for being that I couldn't be logged on the whole time for the last 3 weeks. But then It's just a game.

I don't know if any of you have ever realized while sitting in traffic just staring at other ppl's indicators... I have found that the trademark VW's indicator flashes faster than any other brand out there. All VW's indicator's are a slight of a second faster than the rest.

For my Internet flirts.... It's not going as well. I think it's time to move over to some real live meat....

Anyways... Chat laters. Have to Finnish my project.

Sweet Dreams to you all and hope you have a Lovely day tomorrow.....

Signing out The Grem.

Its not me but Person

Yes I know I've been absent here for quite some time... For that I'm sorry... I had a very very busy week or two and I finally have some time to relax. I hope My blog will get some more new posts soon.... As I have found person and I have to say I'm abit addicted to it.

Yes it's actually a site designed for desperate lonely people to try and find a partner. Well I'm not desperate, well not yet but I sure are feeling lonely this last two three weeks. Think the last time I felt normal were the last time I visited Lee and Stiffy. The morning after it all kicked in.... The lonely way home, The lonely home and just the music I'm listening now.... Not really helping but I just feel I want to listen it.

I'm missing my friends.... All of them, even those I haven't spoke to for the last year and those that are mad of me for some or other reason that I don't know what. I'm feeling.... Yes I'm just feeling.

oh what to do.....

P.S. I have found some one on facebook... No not in that way.

I have just found some one so beautiful. Really I have to say she are more beautiful than beauty it self. I never knew that you actually get that kind of perfect... The perfect you just don't believe... Normally if beauty are there, there's always just this one or other thing that's not intact. Just that one Little thing that's just not right. Well here I can really say there are nothing wrong.... The perfect shaped face with the most beautiful eye's with a very cute Little smile a perfect Little nose wrapped in beautiful long hair..... Oh I guess when people talk about love at first sight this is how it feel. Well If she should stand before me I'll really be speech less.....

a Weird thing that I noticed on person.com are the fact that I can chat better with the lady's in the age group of 30 -40 than with those of 20 - 25... Now why shall that be?? Are there something wrong with me.... Should I rather look for a sugar mommy than looking for a girl???

Oh I cant get that ace out of my head....

A Day of Supprise

I have been working in a huge church today, the place looks like a shopping mall. Okay don't see that place as an church but more like a big business, They make over 1.4 million in collection each weekend, now tell me that, that's not a business.

Anyway there are this one part in there front hall where all the oldish lady's gather each morning to enjoy a hot cup of tea and discuss all the bad and evil things that the people done yesterday. I promise you that there were nothing good said about anyone in there Little bubble of space. Just sitting there and drinking there tea.

Unfortunately for me the work that has to be done there were just out side of their bubble. I've spend more than 5 hours next to their bubble, as one got up to leave to go and get her brats from school ( Darn I sounding like Lee now ) another just come and join their Little tea party. In that 5 hours of hell 1 good thing has been said.... Her boy got selected for a music thingy, and back to the normal discussion.

After reading lee's blog I suddenly realized that the old hags has discussed the same thing to day. I can remember that the one said that Halloween should be baned and that she cant believe that there are country's enjoying this fantastic day. And how they discussed the fact of that it's Satan's birthday. Now the one thing that made my day were the look(S) I received by trying to hold in my laughter right to them as they were talking all this "Bullshit" about Halloween. ( sorry for the lang ).

How can people give make that they are so good and so sweet, telling you to follow the right path alto it might be a bit tight and then just turn around and speak nasty about other people??

Just to Happy....

Oh this is just to cute for words....

I have a problem and my problem are that I'm just to darn happy. I have this major urge just to wright a poem again, I just have to its eating me up inside for the fact that I haven't written one in such a long time.

I have three perfect gorgeous pics lying inside of my picture folder that has to become poems but I just cant turn them into a poem. I have tried for the last week and I have just got as far as one phrase and deleted. Now that has been going on for such a long time. It's killing me.

I don't have what it takes when I'm happy. When I'm happy I love the fact that I have to go to work, I love it to communicate with people and I love live. But all the rest is gone.... I drive like my gran mother and just don't care about anything happening. I ignore all bad just enjoy the wonderful sarcasm of the earth.

I hate it.... I tell you I hate it. Maybe if I had a reason to be happy it would have been okay, but there's nothing there, nothing to be so happy about. I want to be sad again.... I want to be able to write my poems, I want to enjoy every second I spend on the roads every day. Driving as a maniac. I want to feel the pain inside me, I want to feel my hart bleeding and I want to know that I'm still alive living a life on this planet.

I don't want to be mad but I just want to be sad... I want to write...

Someone please make me sad, Well that's now if it's possible for a happy man to get sad. :)

And its offer

Okay so the game are played and now the world are back to normal. No more funny ppl walking around with gold hair in the streets.

Well the game was quite good "I think", Yes I'm not a big rugby fan or in fact I'm not a real big sport fan if it has no wheels and no engine. But I watched the game with a few of my dear friends and they played good.

Al tho I haven't really got the kick out of the game but more watching my friends while the game where on. Sitting there almost ready to jump into the TV and help them play. Screaming, stressing and even some tears running down there cheeks as they score.

Thanx for the entertainment :) I enjoyed it....

Let it out.....

Ever bottled every thing up in side of you, so much that your soul just feel that it can no more, you keep every thing for your self just don't know how to let go of it. As much as you would like to spill it out to some one you trust with your life you just cant. You just cant get your self to that point to do it, you make plans and when it gets there you cant do anything....

Well I have that problem, I keep everything to myself never letting go. It works, it keeps you happy but you always get to a limit. a Limit that just make you crack and that's never a good thing. Had one on a certain new years and my cabinet or what ever you call the thing have seen its last days. I had one more to the beginning of the year and had a fight with someone I don't want to fight with. It turned out great tho, for my life that is.

And then you just get those days you just burst into tears... Well that I get allot ( Lee you never read this ) just lying on your bed and snap, out comes the tears as every thing eats you out from inside. Your hart pains, your mind runs away with thoughts of what to do and how to stop the pain. Every person are different there as I tend to go for a search you hurt myself more. In that way when the pain goes away nothing bodders me anymore for a while tho, and unfortunately I used some one that could have been a wonderful friend for that. I miss her come to think about it.

Why are it so hard to let it all out, just lay back and let your soul take it all out and let it flow out as words. We all know it helps but still nothing. I started this blog out as something I wanted to let go, me and Lee discussed something a bit earlier involving one of her friends and I realized something, something that I were searching the answer for since I can remember. She just made me to realize that I know why, I have had the answer all these years but just never wanted to admit it to myself. Now I have I admitted it to myself but have now just realized that its more a fear than anything else.

Yes I have fears... As afraid as I am for a small little horsey as afraid as I am of small little rooms, well if you can call that a fear.

Strange how ppl can help you and don't even know they did, or what they done. Now just to get past it as hell knows there's no way in hell I'll get closer than 5 meters to horse.

Nothing but emptiness

Nothing..... Yes nothing that's all that's on my mind, there's nothing bordering me there's nothing I'm thinking of. It's just a clear plain of emptiness here. Well it was just one of those day's I woke up happy and I just turned like a pool of crystal clear watter when a bloody body gets dropped in. The way that the blood takes over the pool and soon its just red and nothing else, was a phone call this morning for me. From happy to just fed up for the day. I have had one of my worst days, just didn't want to do anything, didn't want to work, didn't want to speak and didn't want to think.

And still nothing, nothing to say nothing to type. My creative side are still sleeping and don't want me to bring it out yet. It likes the silence and it likes the dark.

Why are it always so hard to let go of things. I have this one wonderful and beautiful lady friend, Oh she's just adorable but she likes to torture her self by hurting her soul day to day. She's so unhappy with her man, she shed a tear everyday for him, she knows he's hurting her but still she stays loyal to him just because she cant let go. It has been two months now and from the start there were only things in the way of happiness in that relation ship. Yes she will not admit it but she knows it's true. Just let go... How I wish our moons were closer for me to show her what happiness could be.

To Reaver good luck and I hope for all the best.