Confuzed World!!

Ones world can get so easely confuzed with all these ups and downs that life thro to us unwarned and unexpected, the darn bugger keep throing me agains the head just to spite me. Chasing you this way then that way up here down there and whallaaa Confuzed. (darn I cant remember what I wanted to say)...

At this stage I don't know where I am. I'm unhappy when it comes to work and just life. But there is thi shappy place I have now that keeps me up above every thing, No matter how mad you make me, how sad you make me or how unhappy I might feel. that litle happyness is keeping a smile on my silly litle face, Keeps a smile in my voice and keeps me so calm that it doesn't even bother me what you say or do. Now this is confuzing me. I Should be sad right now but hay I'm smilling and are very very joyfull.

Even though the bad are 1000 times more than the good, The good always win. hehe. Yeah I feel like that tree. Just relaxing in the sunset but at the same time deing in the cold dept of the world, killing me step by step, second by secondwith it low temputer. Hanging upside down as nothing makes sence thats going on, lost in every way that my mind can go, thoughts are running out faster than it takes my hair to turn gray (believe me thats so closes already... hehe) and last but not least as its the biggest thing keeping me on the go. Standing in the sunsine growing and becoming green feeding of all the bad and making it good. One goood thing like the sun for the tree can make your life the best there is.

P.S. Beware to much can be bad too, if a tree only have sun it would burn to death.

An ye harm none, do what ye will.
Blessed be!!

NOSjunkie becoming a GAMEjunkie....

Okay so yeah maybe for you peeps this means nothing, But for me and my buddy Stiffy this means the world. Come one Lee is playing a game WOW!!! And even more is the fact that she consitrate so much that when me and DW speak to her she hears nothing. And then she always said she dont like playing games and she gets irretated playing them.


But give her some purple dragons and fluffy flying creaters to shoot and she's as happy as a puppy...

O ain't life great, things just happen to you when you never expected it. Things get found when your lost.

Sorry peeps that I haven't been posting for a while but I have so much problems with my internet these last few days, couldn't connect and if it did it always just disconnected again in a few mins...
I know I ow you all a decent post and I know that Mr. Marra can't wait for some dark suff but I have to say at this stage I'm a bit to happy for things like that. Sorry Marra.... LOL
I will post a decent topic and post soon. Hopefully after the middle of the week it will be done... Don't know yet still waiting for an answer, That reminds me have to ask if its a yes or a no....

Blessed Be!

Mind Cleared

I've been gone for this weekend, wel away from home and all the normal places in my life... Now with that I jave treid to clear my mind so I had to be alone to do this. Just to get every thing out thats in there and trouhing every thing in the trash can when I got it all out, Yip it all is going to the dumps... It's time that old Gremmy becomes him self again, Just a litle freak with legs... and well as hard as it maybe, this is gonna happen again and very very soon.

Well friday was still my normal boring life at home. And all the fun started on saterday. Okay I must admit that saterday was just one hell of a big mess in my mind. As I sat there all alone in a dark litle room, my mind began to go places, places bad and evil, places sad and morbid, places that just made me so down and depressed it just isn't true. But with all that it is something that had to happen and I'm glad it did. It made me realize whats really going on in my life and what really count in my life... Hell I can go on with my life as a sad and morbid person or I can do so as a happy litle freak just running around and enjoying life...

Sunday was a great sucess thou. I woke up sunday with a smile on my face hapy to just be. Now doesn't that sound better. Yeah I smiled early in the morning, thats something I haven't done for a while, But now thats coming back. I reallized that there's so many good things in my life that I chose to ignore as I was looking for all bad things to kleen on. Well ppl I'm as happy as can be on this moment. Yeah sure there will still be dark and morbid things happening here on my blog, but thats just because I love it...

Well I still have till thuesday to sort every thing out thats still bodering me but that will be done... From thuesday on I'll be the old litle Gremlin with his split personality's... The good and the evil... hehe. Well some will know what I'm talking about.

Well I'll proberly have to end this as I'm not writing a noval here. So to all my minions, have a great and fantastic day I really hope you'll enjoy it as much as humanly possible.

An ye harm none, do what ye will!
Blessed Be!!

P.S. Hope your okay Sammy...

Cool Leason!!

Hay peeps. I have learned a cool leason yesterday and its worth every second of the pain. I always thought that you will bleed to death if you cut of a body part with out any medical treatment after wards, but I was wrong. I have learned that if you use a grinder to cut that body part off you will not bleed to death... as a grinder burn its way through and dont really cut.

Yeah I learned this the hard way by almost cutting of my finger, it looked so cool. It looks like a hole in your hand, no blood no nothing just a hole as every thing has been burned and sealed.
Okay yes its darn swore as its half way throu the bone but no blood. hehe

And I have found a "stick a stich" its a plaster doing the job of a stich, two three days more and you would never say it was that deep. it has already begin to heal and the skin has attached it self to each other as long there is no strain, other whise it just pull open again, Gosh Have to love these "stick a stitch" I'll never have to go to a docter again... Yippeeee.....

HEHE okay have to cut this short, the weather is treing to kill my pc with all its lightning bolts. Chat soon.

Blessed be!!

Price Less!!

So I got up this morning knowing this will be a normal working day for me. Yes I will go in to work, have my cup of sugarless coffy, go and sit down and sort out my day and beening sh@ted on... Guese what exactly that happened, so as I standed there while my boss were getting his temper up and shouting at me as if I just made his litle girl pregnant, I was thinking now what will be the coolest way of resigning?? mmmmm.....

Well yeah I resigned today, you had to see it, I never thought that one's eye's can open that wide. Now have you seen how a meeting get orginized in 1sec? Have you ever had your boss on his knees for you?? Well I can say I had. I resigned and I was begged over and over and over to stay, he was on his knees in front of me for some silly reason, begging me to stay saying sorry over and over. mmmm....... I wonder if I should?? Nope sorry mind made up. Well they are offering me a better package tomorrow, Changing things for me. Lets see what happens tomorrow. but What ever happens I'm so sure I'm still leaving.

Why do ppl never care of whats around them? What they have until its to late?? Why sould ppl be blind and just care about them self, Gosh I hate mankind, so self centered, every thing is only going about them selfs and no one else... I believe if you look after your ppl or friends they will look after you. so why keep everything for your self? Because your better than us?? Well the hell with you...

Blessed be!!

Lazy Weekend....

Hi there all my fellowers of the ring of life... O what a weekend, I cant remember when last I was as lazy as this one thats just past, it's not like me to be so useless for a whole weekend. I really just wasted some good air.

Lets see Friday was a horroble day at work. My boss that has resigned on thursday had decided to pull his resignation back and just took some sort notice leave. But with this whole excircise he done here there where a few things that just dissapeared from my van stock and 90% of my tools are also gone. Well friday night I thought of going to Miss Lee and Mr DW freak just to go and say hi, well my baby thought that she don't wanna drive and there where just nothing I could do about it. So I stayed at home and done nothing in front of the tv on my futon.

Well saterday.... I got up at about 10 and I just quiclky fixed my baby and took a litle trip to my fellow freaks as I have been missing the two litle buggers.Been there for about an hourjust standing there listenning at DW blaberbox that he calls a mouth (hehehe). Went home from there and just walked till the TV and down with me. For the rest of the weekend I imagined
that I'm a mushroom just lying there in the dark coner growing on everything my hands could get to eat... Sunday guese what I was still laying there doing nothing had no sleep as I was bussy the whole weekend just watching movies.

So yeah, I really treid to just lay there and built up some penicillen for the week but for some strange reason those things just dont wanna grow on me, I treid everything, lying there in a dark damp cold corner and still nothing. hehe

hehe well something that did happen this weekend is that my boss had made my mind up for me. I'm resigning tomorrow as I had enought of his sh@t, I can't take it anymore I'm on the virtual point to just grab a something and beat the living sh@t out of him. So in stead I'll just resign and walk away, as far as possible away from him. Luckely my interview on friday went good but its not a done case yet, so I just hold my thumbs that, thats ganna happen or well I'll just have to make the best of being workless. Well things cant really go worse than it are so what the hell.....

And ye harm none, do what ye will.
Honor, Responsibility and Duty Always!
Strength be to me and to thee.
Blessed be!!

This is not a good start....

Hi there all. yeah this is 2007 another year has past and still sitting at the same place than last year this time. No wait I'm acctually a bit lower than last year. hehe

Well lets see what happened this year so far. mmmmm I got teired of my wonderfull boss and all his crap. But then he has just resigned today so I have to take over and I have to try and do my own work but I just dont get time to do every thing. I'm running around like a mad cow with two legs and wings on his head. Darn ppl just think every thing takes no longer than 5mins to finnish. But the good news off it all is that I may have a interview tommorow. Hope fully there will happen something so that my life can get back on track, Cant waste another year. Really the only thing happened last year was all my good friends I made.... Now that made everything worth while.

My baby.... Well I dont really wanna start with her, after all the love and care I gave her last year she still dont love me as much as I love her. As I stair into her big shiny eye's in the morning when I wake up, with her red hair giving off that golden shine as soon the sun light toutches her perfectly shaped boddy, *sigh* Oh all the money spend last year to keep her happy, all my hard work and all my effort for nothing.... hehe ne not that bad. after I done her motor and had her running like a baby again she decided that she wants to rest a bit more and I had to replace the whole suspention, after that was fixed and 100% she decided that her power steering should not work anymore..... Oh I give up... One thing after another... Just never stops does it???

Well enoth with all my mouning and grouning.... Enjoy your year peeps. Hope to hear alot from ya all and hope that you all will sucseed in what your dreaming.

OH yeah Lee. I knewyou can do it.....

A wish for you

Last night I saw a shooting star

And I made a wish with all my hart

They say a wish do come tue

When it all o so true

I could have wished for my dream car

I could have wished for rich and fame

I could have wished for something hard

I could have wished for all I want

But instead I wished for you

Not for you to love me

Not for you to want me

But for you to see me

Just to feel your soft skin

To taste your soft lips

To smell your beauty

To see the colour of your soul

It's all I'll need

My wish is for you

For you to be happy

For you to be spoiled

For your my prinsess

My smile, My life

So here's to you

And you alone...

Blessed be!

How do you tag a Freak??

Okay so I have been tagged by Sammy to show you six weird things about me... Okay fine, But now you tell me. How do you ask a crazy weird freak to name six weird things about him?? According to me every thing I do are normal, but okay I'll try my best....

1.) Okay I'm not afraid of a snake or spider ect. ( find them sort of addorable ) And yeah there you are sitting and thinking thats not weird right... But the weird part is the fact that I am soooo scared of a little horsie, I cant stand 10 meters to a horse thats not behind a fecnce and I'm a ball of goose bumps.

2.) The way I think... ( well according to friends ) If you take some thing little like a light bulp. You say well plug it in and light. me again will think of how this thing works, why if you normally heat glass it breaks but here there's a 0.5mm glass that gets to the heat of 300 degrees ( you can look it up if you dont believe me ) and yet it never burst. the wire are 0.2mm and takes a while to burn out on 220V. put the same size wire on a 12V battery and it will melt in 0.2 of a second... Why's that??

3.) Believing.... I'm a fond believer of things, like my wonderfull Aliens, yeah they are there.... and the conspiresy theory's, you see a corn field and I see the millitary base underneeth the corn fields. The missile silo's dressed as those big round buildings "where they put the corn in". haha watch out for the nuclear popcorn....

4.) My little sleeping places... There are a few times that I have passed out on a little bathroom carpet, you know those small little thingy's in front of our shower. Yes them, that, close to life wires and plugs and I sleep like a baby... or underneeth my compers desk, Once in a cars boot never again though, that was the worst sleeping experience I ever had.

5.) The devil in me.... Now this is the evil grem that comes out to play every now and then, with just the right trigger and believe you me, when thats triggerd you will eassely see it in my face. *smile* Okay this is when I blow up every once's meat on the fire with exploding rocks, Playing with a burning worm ("brand wurm" hehe) thats about 10cm long. hehe stuff like that and more but this page is sencored ******

6.) My love for pain.... Okay don't get me wrong here, I will never go and hurt my self for the fun of it, okay almost never but I do so every now and then but we don't really talk about that. I broke my arm a few years ago and well I didn't feel it until I treid to pick something up and saw that my arm was bent. Okay the broken neck was just plain hell. Got burn marks on my arms somewhere that should have been only one but got 4.... oops!! I once looked how hard eastrand malls roof walls are, well it was stronger than me after connecting the wall at atleast 15km/h face first. the wall still standed.... oops. Trying a suicide move with a rhynobroard that your puls stands 3cm swallon. that was fun, hehe.... kinky.

Well theres a few well six points for ya all. we'll for me they all are normal but for you it might be crazy, weird and think that I'm a freak. Well thank you because I am. Okay one more for you guy's or girl's. I'm how old?? I done matriek langauges and I still can't spell and get lost when ever there are big words used like .................. well sorry the words to big for me, cant prenouns it so can't spell it. haha then also a dictionary are made to check your spelling right?? Well how the hell can you do that if you dont know how its spelled?? you cant search a word to confirm the spelling if you dont know how it sould look like, so what does that really help??

and then.... hehe okay I'll stop I'll go on now for ever with this little small thingy's.... So I TAG the one and only, the ruler off all, the all knowing...... Give me a D, Give me a O, Give me a N.... hehe Okay fine. I TAG Miss Donsie....

Blessed Be!

Addiction

As I wake up in the morning
I know I need it
In the middle of the day
I know I need it
In the start of the evening
I know I need it
Before I go to bed
I know I need it

I have an addiction
Yes I do
I cant go with out it
I feel so dead
With out there's no life
With out I'm not me
I need it now
I needed it today

I'm laying here on the floor
My body begins to get cold
As blood moves thru my vains
I'm sweating rivers
I cant get up, the drugs to low
My brain cant function with out
My body don't obbay
I have an addiction
I have no cure
Just my drug
For now and here

Your my drug
Your my wake up call
Your my days energy
Your my good night kiss

I have to hear from you
I have to see your smile
I have to stair into your deep eye's
I miss you so much
I miss your soul
I need you in my life
Please dont be so silent