Tuesday, December 26, 2006

A wish for you

Last night I saw a shooting star
And I made a wish with all my hart
They say a wish do come tue
When it all o so true

I could have wished for my dream car
I could have wished for rich and fame
I could have wished for something hard
I could have wished for all I want

But instead I wished for you
Not for you to love me
Not for you to want me
But for you to see me

Just to feel your soft skin
To taste your soft lips
To smell your beauty
To see the colour of your soul
It's all I'll need

My wish is for you
For you to be happy
For you to be spoiled
For your my prinsess
My smile, My life

So here's to you
And you alone...
Blessed be!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

How do you tag a Freak??

Okay so I have been tagged by Sammy to show you six weird things about me... Okay fine, But now you tell me. How do you ask a crazy weird freak to name six weird things about him?? According to me every thing I do are normal, but okay I'll try my best....

1.) Okay I'm not afraid of a snake or spider ect. ( find them sort of addorable ) And yeah there you are sitting and thinking thats not weird right... But the weird part is the fact that I am soooo scared of a little horsie, I cant stand 10 meters to a horse thats not behind a fecnce and I'm a ball of goose bumps.

2.) The way I think... ( well according to friends ) If you take some thing little like a light bulp. You say well plug it in and light. me again will think of how this thing works, why if you normally heat glass it breaks but here there's a 0.5mm glass that gets to the heat of 300 degrees ( you can look it up if you dont believe me ) and yet it never burst. the wire are 0.2mm and takes a while to burn out on 220V. put the same size wire on a 12V battery and it will melt in 0.2 of a second... Why's that??

3.) Believing.... I'm a fond believer of things, like my wonderfull Aliens, yeah they are there.... and the conspiresy theory's, you see a corn field and I see the millitary base underneeth the corn fields. The missile silo's dressed as those big round buildings "where they put the corn in". haha watch out for the nuclear popcorn....

4.) My little sleeping places... There are a few times that I have passed out on a little bathroom carpet, you know those small little thingy's in front of our shower. Yes them, that, close to life wires and plugs and I sleep like a baby... or underneeth my compers desk, Once in a cars boot never again though, that was the worst sleeping experience I ever had.

5.) The devil in me.... Now this is the evil grem that comes out to play every now and then, with just the right trigger and believe you me, when thats triggerd you will eassely see it in my face. *smile* Okay this is when I blow up every once's meat on the fire with exploding rocks, Playing with a burning worm ("brand wurm" hehe) thats about 10cm long. hehe stuff like that and more but this page is sencored ******

6.) My love for pain.... Okay don't get me wrong here, I will never go and hurt my self for the fun of it, okay almost never but I do so every now and then but we don't really talk about that. I broke my arm a few years ago and well I didn't feel it until I treid to pick something up and saw that my arm was bent. Okay the broken neck was just plain hell. Got burn marks on my arms somewhere that should have been only one but got 4.... oops!! I once looked how hard eastrand malls roof walls are, well it was stronger than me after connecting the wall at atleast 15km/h face first. the wall still standed.... oops. Trying a suicide move with a rhynobroard that your puls stands 3cm swallon. that was fun, hehe.... kinky.

Well theres a few well six points for ya all. we'll for me they all are normal but for you it might be crazy, weird and think that I'm a freak. Well thank you because I am. Okay one more for you guy's or girl's. I'm how old?? I done matriek langauges and I still can't spell and get lost when ever there are big words used like .................. well sorry the words to big for me, cant prenouns it so can't spell it. haha then also a dictionary are made to check your spelling right?? Well how the hell can you do that if you dont know how its spelled?? you cant search a word to confirm the spelling if you dont know how it sould look like, so what does that really help??

and then.... hehe okay I'll stop I'll go on now for ever with this little small thingy's.... So I TAG the one and only, the ruler off all, the all knowing...... Give me a D, Give me a O, Give me a N.... hehe Okay fine. I TAG Miss Donsie....

Blessed Be!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Addiction


As I wake up in the morning
I know I need it
In the middle of the day
I know I need it
In the start of the evening
I know I need it
Before I go to bed
I know I need it

I have an addiction
Yes I do
I cant go with out it
I feel so dead
With out there's no life
With out I'm not me
I need it now
I needed it today

I'm laying here on the floor
My body begins to get cold
As blood moves thru my vains
I'm sweating rivers
I cant get up, the drugs to low
My brain cant function with out
My body don't obbay
I have an addiction
I have no cure
Just my drug
For now and here

Your my drug
Your my wake up call
Your my days energy
Your my good night kiss

I have to hear from you
I have to see your smile
I have to stair into your deep eye's
I miss you so much
I miss your soul
I need you in my life
Please dont be so silent

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Another Year has past...

Wel every one has already done a cristmass post, and every one are getting ready for leave, (Lucky peasants) so I decided I'll do this before you all go and leave me alone here to suffer thru my long december month...

Most is done with there christmass sopping every thing wrapped signed and and redy to dish out, waiting patiantly to see the smile on the persons face when recieving there perssies and the fake smile when they see what they have recieved from you saying thanks this is great... (mean while their brain is shouting out what the hell sould I do with this??) Aaaahhh aint cristmass just the best??

Well hope fully every thing works out so that I can spend my christmass with my chosen fadamily (Lee and Stiffy) so that I can also spend that time with the ppl close to my hart, Wish there were bit more that I could include in my christmass but mmmmm......

So merry christmas to all.... And a happy new year!!!!

Aaaaahhh New years.... Camping out in our new soon to be front yard with anoth liquer to feed the poor, (Darm aren't I glad I'm poor), a Braai to feed my litle pet (very demanding for Lots of food) that would hopefully be before we break the neck of the first botle fished out of the can. A litle bit of fun activities and alot of KINGS... (dare to chiken out and that will be your end) and soon to past out some where on a rock where you will be left to rot.

Have a nice holiday peeps. Enjoy every minute of it as next christmass is still far far away.

Blessed be!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

The words BRB...

Can anyone please tell me what BRB means... I always thought that it means "Be Right Back", and this last few days I was proven wrong this three letters just cant mean that.

I have been getting this so much the last few days, just a small "brb" and geuse what, that brb turns into a big NEVER. As I'm sitting there and wait for the back part, I just realized that that back will never be today. So I guese the next time I get a "BRB" I have to say good bye and have a nice evening, sweat dreams and We'll chat tomorrow again.

Yeah I know this post is just a lot of crap but why say BRB if you never come back?? Why not just say good bye?? At least then I know "Till next time". So now for the new meaning of BRB... Well I guese that means Bath, Room, Bed... So good night!!!!!!!

Well all BRB.

Blessed be!

Monday, December 04, 2006

Shadows...

As I wake up in the mornings
As I open my eye's
I look in to the darkness
Of my lost and lonely soul
I'm surounded by blackness
I only see shadows of all
As all surounds me
In this small place of mine

I can see myself standing here
All afraid of what cant be seen
The space is getting smaller
As more surounds me
Everything is building up
I feel like falling down
And cry some tears
But I know tears will never do

It's sharp as it moves through my skin
My blood is slowly pouring out
As each drop makes its way to the ground
I can feel my body weakening
My eye's dont want to see
My minds not getting air

I can feel my life moving out
My body getting colder
As I hear the drops falling
I know this is the end
The end of me being me
The blade has won
As I let it to

All gets darker
All gets softer
And all thats left
is Silence....

Blessed be!