Why, Why, Why.Why keep it a secret? why keep it for your self? It's not if it was that much to say! Just be open and honnest!
Everything whent so good, every thing happend as it should, every thing was almost perfect, Well so I thought but I guese I was wrong, Guese I'm the fool, Guese I was blind.
I really thought every thing is going fine and that there might be a chance. And then all the sudden every thing is just going wrong one after another, one today two tomorrow and so it keeps on going and going never ending never stopping.
Why not just tell me? Why not just be open and honnest with me, would it have killed you? Its just a few simple words one phrase and on phrase only. Would have helped me alot, just to say........
Now I kept on hanning on for my life, where I just could have let go and save so much of sadness, so much of tears and so much more of self respect. Would really have loved just to know. And all would not have been gone, Some would have survived and some would have still be great.
But as it's me and me aloan in this wonderful time of pain and missery, I'll guese I'll just have to survive and keep on going. But ALL will never be lost, I will not let every thing dissapear, I dedicated my life and will kleen on as long as posible. Thought some thing was deffirent, thought something was weird and now it all had to come out like this, It broke my hard and will proberly do so for a while.
Please no secrets, be honnest and all will go well.
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Hiya bud, from one friend to another...Wake the HELL up dude? I'll be the first one to agree that she's beautiful, she’s funny and she’s cute. But think a bit with your head and not your little member. There is no chance in HELL that she'll be with you. Let her go or be pathetic…your choice. But think carefully now…if you choose pathetic I WILL rip you to pieces for dragging the male name through the mud.
And if you ignore my help I will rip your whole phucking clan! I know who she is.
So don’t even bother acting all innocent. I ask BOTH of you…Stop this crap. I’m getting sad, irritated and angry…You won’t like me when I’m angry…Grem, I have asked one of your closest friends to talk to you. But the person can’t be too honest or straight with you, the person is scared you’ll get mad or something. I have no beef with you my friend. But keep it up…I’ll be in your and anyone else’s face if this continues. Your blog is making me sad. And I have just met my life partner…I don’t want to feel sad.
My brother use to tell me when I was young dumb and full of…well…scheizer…”Only a dumb man struggle, and I’m not saying you’re dumb,
but you struggle!”
I ask you both as a friend, whoever is doing what? Stop it…I’m not pointing fingers.
I’m not pointing members…I simply ask you both of you….STOP! She will eat you alive. Stop your feelings for her, stop messing with each others brains…just, last time,
STOP.
Daddy is finished now.
Hay Marra.
Okay well I don't really know you, I do, dont really know what you can say or do in my life. But I can warn you now. You have no right to try and make me scared. I'm might be a softty but dont make me mad, I might just loose my mind.
O ya. I'm glad that you have found your solemate, Fuck I hope it works out and that it will last until six feet under. But please, If you have no ground to stand up, of our facts then keep it for your self.
You know you just ended my life.
WHAHHAHAHA!!!! AWESOME!
Grem, my friend, you did listen to me. You and I both know that. And you may have not been scared of me but your scared of how truthful I was. Listen to me…I blobbed
behind a super amazing woman as well…For 2 years…You know what I have left?
Scars my friend…and not just emotional. I’m a sadist. I like pain. It’s the only way
I can save myself from the emotional buggers. It’s not worth it. I did not attack you
coz you were in love….I attacked you coz everyone around you were scared for you.
And I don’t mind being in love…it’s when a man looses his dignity in the process that
I step in.
I assure you, it wasn’t idle threats…Hell I don’t use threats…it was warnings…crystal clear. Mess with what the Big Man upstairs gave you, and you have to answer to me!
I was so dead scared of dying alone. I did not have a relationship since std 8 Grem….
You wanna measure yourself against me? Try 12 fucking years boet. Why? I ran away? I hid myself away from happiness? I connected with the one’s that didn’t WANT me…and I connected with the one’s that didn’t deserve me. How pathetic is that huh? Plain and simple.
You listen and listen good. I may have ripped your heart out…I may have killed you, you lucky son of a gun, but I have opened another door for you. Not just one Grem….not just one. Grow the Hell up. Smell the toxic Jo’burg air….lift your chin up. And look life in the eye…Or it will devour you and there’ll be nothing left but a puddle of mud. Yes I have found someone amazing. I call her my little miracle.
You know what….after all the hurt, the longing…I am happy. And all the pain is washed away. I’m clean. If you don’t go on your knees and ask whoever you pray to
for help….you shall not receive help. Think about it…And stop whining and begging.
Sorry...I added my name but it still said anonymous...??????
Grem, my friend.
Marra is extremely honest and to me it is crystal clear he is trying to help you not make the mistake's he made. One can go two ways here, keep away from all love like Marra did, or be like me try to get love in all the wrong places......I am not gonna tell my soppy tale. The thing is I want to share with you my dear Grem, decide that you are done with her, clearly there will never be a relationship between you two. deal with the sadness and pain(give it a time limit, so not go over the time limit) and then live your life with all the amazing things it will bring your way. And now my friend you know I have insight into the workings off the universe(don't deny my power)....your life partner is amazing, she will have eyes that glimmer when she sees you, and her soul will be as wonderful loving and amazing as yours because as I always say you deserve the world.
Love
Me
Well thanx Xena.
and proberly thanx to Marra too. Thanx that you guys wanna help I do apreciate it. Marra sorry for my short temper with you, Xena made me reallize something here.
But this is a hard desition for me.
Been out last night and one of my girl friends reminded me that its not me to give up, Defenetly not so fast. And then you guys say that I sould just let go.
Well the fact is that she is an amazing person, its as hard as hell just to forget, Tryed and it last for about 10mins before she's back in my head. I cant just stop.
But there was enought tears, anymore and I'll dehidrate. Marra you said that you just opened a few door for me, Wel the only problem there is the fact that I'm standing in front of the golden door, Just need the darn key. But for your sake and mine I'll move over to the silver door that is open for me, Need no key.
And again good luck with your soulmate, I really meen it.
Xena you got the inside in Life. HAHA yes that you have proofed to me. Just whish you could chance some things over there.LOL. Thanx for all your help, You've been there from day one, even before I realized who you are. Darn how stupid could I be. LOL.
So the point my friends, I'll never give up but for now there will be no more tears and no more sadness, We actaully had a nice chat about this.
So for all this would become a friendship stronger than ever.
Thanx for all.
Love is stronger than Hate.
Ok Skat dis jou keuse. I was there from day one I and I will be there for a very long time.
It a great pleasure to be your friend.
Love
X
Well my job is done. Well done with the chat with her.If you feel stronger and happier...I'm happy. Keep it up and pointing north my son...Good for you and good for your friend to tell you not to give up. Just please stay sober about it. And stay objective. Is all I can ask you laddy!
HAHA Marra Im sorry if you found this as a job.
Is all I can ask you laddy! What do you mean with this.
Xena. Thanx for being my friend.
Stay sober about your divine gold door...And stay objective about your feelings...So in plain english...Stop whining like a nymph taken by a motorcycle gang and look your lost love in the eye with your chin up and your shoulders straight...hahahahahahahaha
Don't loose focus, keep your dignity...hell I'm running out of word...Be a man...Uhm...Woteva, just do your thing...and do it good. Ok?
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