Merry Xmas...

Merry Xmas you all. Hope you all had a wonderful Xmas and hope you all spend it with those you love. For those who have been working on Xmas... I fell your pain, I too were one of those idiots that have been working on Xmas and I have to say that this was no fun what so ever.

But with all bad things comes good along on the sidewalk. I have received the best news or must I say the best Xmas gift that could have hoped for. It's something I have been waiting for, for so long and now finally it has happened. Well let me spill the good news out.... I'm becoming an uncle in 8 months.... Yippeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm more excited about this small little creation of live than my sister and her hubby. Although they have been trying for quite some time. I can't wait.....

Sorry for the absence from my side. I've been working non stop from 07:00 till 21:00 / 22:00 this whole month and haven't had time to post anything or to see my good friends. Hope all is well there. I'm all alone in our technical department so idiot grems have to do all the darn work and I just cant keep up. I'm so tiered and I need some time off. Today was my first off day I had this month and it was so nice just to lay around and do nothing, and I mean nothing.

But this all have made me to decide to go to another occupation. This security thing wont work for me any more and it's time to move on. I'm having a meeting with a great business man just after the 28th of this month and hopping that it will go good. If it does I'll be starting my own thing and I'm dragging my dad with me into this great and wonderful opportunity.

Also in January I'm starting a media studio with some other ppl. Seeing that we have already have a few clients we have decided to push it ahead and see how it turns out. We have an semi agreement to do a full page on an wonderful "Elanor" GT500 Mustang... but that will only happen in end 2008 if we are lucky otherwise it will only be in 2009. Elanor have cost up to R 400 000 till this stage and she are still only spares laying around. He original imported motor will arrive some stage in Feb 2008. Wish it was mine....

Have a great holiday for those who have one... And for those working, Don't work to hard. It could kill you, I'm almost there.

Till next time.... Be safe and look after your self and your extended attachments.

Blessed Be!!

Life's own curse to human-kind...

As we all live our own life's, we all set goals to reach some high some easy to achieve but all necessary as life mostly exist out of that we want to have, want to achieve and most importantly what you desires. Life consist out of a number of desires that we want. We all desire to have something, for some it might just be a fancy sports car, for some it might be love and for some it might money and power.... but we all have desires and we all set our goals in life to meet up with them in the end.

For instance... I have desired a Nissan Skyline for years now, I felt in love with this tar eating beast in the times of the GT-R 32 racing some desert runs on a sport channel of Coloursat - Time's before DSTV hit the market. After that I moved a level up to the R34 and now I'm still desiring that Little beauty.... My dream car. So, I in life are trying to get a good paying work so that I could buy that Skyline for my self and just enjoy the fruits of my life. Some day I will have my Skyline and that I'm sure off.

What ever you desire you will try to get it and in the end you will live your life to get there. To reach you desire and to life your desire. But life knows about all this Little desires as we are just human, life has its own way of counter your goals. Now everyone wants to be rich and everyone wants to have power, that's just part of living. We all desire more money than we can spend.

But what happens when you reached your goal?? How does your life change?? And what after that??

Life will always counter the fact of satisfaction, You'll never truly be satisfied with your life. I had I challenge a while ago... And as some might know I love a challenge in my life and I normally do achieve my challenges and I normally will not give up before I won. But I'm sad to say it never ends there, life has his own curse upon mankind and as soon as you reach your goal the curse kicks in.

The curse of wanting more.... I can speak for my self and I can say that I'm one of those that always want more. I have the "perfect" work, okay so I don't always love my work but who does?? Most of the time I enjoy what I do and I love my working hours, I can't really say that my salary aren't enough as for my age, I don't think there's many young people at my line of income... Yes I know a few but overall for my age most are a lot smaller. So I should be happy and satisfied.... But I'm not, I want more.... More money more power....

The challenge I had, well I succeeded to a level where I realized this is not gonna be enough for me.... I had it wrapped in my hand, I only had to close my hand and I would have won the challenge... But I stopped and thinked what then. I'm playing with more than just my life here and I know as soon as I had it I would have let it go.... Searching for more, That's just me. Always wanting more and more out of what life have to over me.

I had a love once where I can say I was happy, really I was happy although there were a few things I didn't agree with but I loved her with my whole heart and I still love her. It's been more than three years now since I left her but still I love her and I'll always will. But I was stupid and I wanted more... She just weren't enough for me. My standards are unfortunately high and I don't believe I will ever meet someone with those standards, I'll have to learn to live with less....

Okay back to the point... As a living been we will always want more in life... you'll reach your goal and then you'll just raise the stakes wanting more. So I guess the real question are when do you draw the line?? When can you say that your satisfied with your life although you know you are searching for more.

Can you really say I'm satisfied?? So you love your man/lady with your whole heart.... But don't you sometimes feel like "I want more" ?? It's like catching fish... You do all the work to prepare your line, you throw it into the water and you wait patiently for the fish to bite, when it does you fight the darn bugger to the shore and you take it out of the water... So now you won?? as look at the fish you think " this one are to small" and try again to catch a bigger one.... Never satisfied.....

Would you rather have everything or would you rather have less and still wanting more??

Best directions for use

I live in a place where I have no access to get the nature's best creation close enough to my baby to get the thing clean and as I she's a wonderful black beauty the cleaning should be done on a regular schedule or she looks like a rusted black beast. Now I have found this as a huge problem due to the fact that I only live for her at this stage. Well for as long as I'm single but she would always be one of the top things in my life.

So I went out to search for a greatly minded company that could assist me in my terror of dirt and after a month I found them. They are situate close by me in the echo 4x4 business center and they had the solution that I need. The solution are quite expensive but to get all those dust bugs away with ease and to give her the look of a new born again.

Oh don't we love technology.... They call it the waterless formulation and it works like wonders....
Instant clean with no water what so ever.... Yes its a waterless car wash & wax spray can. You would not believe it as I didn't believe a thing they said until we tested it on my company car off course.

It cleans, it wax and it remove all those small scratches on the body.... The irritating nail scratches at the door handles and it shines like my baby should and all this with out any water and soap.

But the real reason for this post are not for advertising the product but I thought that their directions for use where very original and properly the best I have ever read.

Fast Wax.
1. Park in a shaded area (why work in the sun?)
2. Rinse of excess dirt/mud (usually found on the infield on Sunday)
3. Turn on your favorite radio station to set the mood.
4. Spray on a light coat on a small section
5. Using a terry cloth towel GENTLY (work smart not hard)
6. Allow 10sec to dry
7. Use a soft micro towel. Lightly buff.

Carpet & Upholstery
1. Remove personal items such as loose change, floor mats, cereal, chicken nuggets, french fries and crackers.

Touchless Tire Shine
1. Spray an even coat on tires and even wheels wells
2. Stand back and admire your work

Okay so that's all the pro's now for the cons that bugs me a bit.

The warnings on the tire shine....
1. Danger! Extremely flammable
2. Do not Smoke - extinguish all flames, pilot lights and heaters - Turn of stoves, electric tools and appliances, and any other source of ignition

The warning on the carpet & upholstery
1. Warning: This product contains chemicals know to the state of California to cause cancer and birth defects or other reproductive harm

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It's alive....

Hay there ppl.... Yip I'm still alive and kicking... I know I have been quite for a long time but that's gonna change soon. I'm almost finished with my big coding project and it was loaded on there internal server today soon to bee loaded to the net, Just have a Few small things to adjust and add then I'm finished. My foot are in the door way and the next will bring in some needed food to my hungry pet named wallet.

On top of that after struggling for six months for my boss to bite at my working straggedy it has just realized. As off tomorrow my working days will be as I like to call it a short working day. I got them to change my working hours from 7am to 3pm... That will mean that I'll be home at 3:10pm every afternoon, and still get up at the same time I normally do.

I have been defeated too at 3 months of playing travian. They have taken one of my main villages over and that hurts allot. Reason for being that I couldn't be logged on the whole time for the last 3 weeks. But then It's just a game.

I don't know if any of you have ever realized while sitting in traffic just staring at other ppl's indicators... I have found that the trademark VW's indicator flashes faster than any other brand out there. All VW's indicator's are a slight of a second faster than the rest.

For my Internet flirts.... It's not going as well. I think it's time to move over to some real live meat....

Anyways... Chat laters. Have to Finnish my project.

Sweet Dreams to you all and hope you have a Lovely day tomorrow.....

Signing out The Grem.

Its not me but Person

Yes I know I've been absent here for quite some time... For that I'm sorry... I had a very very busy week or two and I finally have some time to relax. I hope My blog will get some more new posts soon.... As I have found person and I have to say I'm abit addicted to it.

Yes it's actually a site designed for desperate lonely people to try and find a partner. Well I'm not desperate, well not yet but I sure are feeling lonely this last two three weeks. Think the last time I felt normal were the last time I visited Lee and Stiffy. The morning after it all kicked in.... The lonely way home, The lonely home and just the music I'm listening now.... Not really helping but I just feel I want to listen it.

I'm missing my friends.... All of them, even those I haven't spoke to for the last year and those that are mad of me for some or other reason that I don't know what. I'm feeling.... Yes I'm just feeling.

oh what to do.....

P.S. I have found some one on facebook... No not in that way.

I have just found some one so beautiful. Really I have to say she are more beautiful than beauty it self. I never knew that you actually get that kind of perfect... The perfect you just don't believe... Normally if beauty are there, there's always just this one or other thing that's not intact. Just that one Little thing that's just not right. Well here I can really say there are nothing wrong.... The perfect shaped face with the most beautiful eye's with a very cute Little smile a perfect Little nose wrapped in beautiful long hair..... Oh I guess when people talk about love at first sight this is how it feel. Well If she should stand before me I'll really be speech less.....

a Weird thing that I noticed on person.com are the fact that I can chat better with the lady's in the age group of 30 -40 than with those of 20 - 25... Now why shall that be?? Are there something wrong with me.... Should I rather look for a sugar mommy than looking for a girl???

Oh I cant get that ace out of my head....

A Day of Supprise

I have been working in a huge church today, the place looks like a shopping mall. Okay don't see that place as an church but more like a big business, They make over 1.4 million in collection each weekend, now tell me that, that's not a business.

Anyway there are this one part in there front hall where all the oldish lady's gather each morning to enjoy a hot cup of tea and discuss all the bad and evil things that the people done yesterday. I promise you that there were nothing good said about anyone in there Little bubble of space. Just sitting there and drinking there tea.

Unfortunately for me the work that has to be done there were just out side of their bubble. I've spend more than 5 hours next to their bubble, as one got up to leave to go and get her brats from school ( Darn I sounding like Lee now ) another just come and join their Little tea party. In that 5 hours of hell 1 good thing has been said.... Her boy got selected for a music thingy, and back to the normal discussion.

After reading lee's blog I suddenly realized that the old hags has discussed the same thing to day. I can remember that the one said that Halloween should be baned and that she cant believe that there are country's enjoying this fantastic day. And how they discussed the fact of that it's Satan's birthday. Now the one thing that made my day were the look(S) I received by trying to hold in my laughter right to them as they were talking all this "Bullshit" about Halloween. ( sorry for the lang ).

How can people give make that they are so good and so sweet, telling you to follow the right path alto it might be a bit tight and then just turn around and speak nasty about other people??

Just to Happy....

Oh this is just to cute for words....

I have a problem and my problem are that I'm just to darn happy. I have this major urge just to wright a poem again, I just have to its eating me up inside for the fact that I haven't written one in such a long time.

I have three perfect gorgeous pics lying inside of my picture folder that has to become poems but I just cant turn them into a poem. I have tried for the last week and I have just got as far as one phrase and deleted. Now that has been going on for such a long time. It's killing me.

I don't have what it takes when I'm happy. When I'm happy I love the fact that I have to go to work, I love it to communicate with people and I love live. But all the rest is gone.... I drive like my gran mother and just don't care about anything happening. I ignore all bad just enjoy the wonderful sarcasm of the earth.

I hate it.... I tell you I hate it. Maybe if I had a reason to be happy it would have been okay, but there's nothing there, nothing to be so happy about. I want to be sad again.... I want to be able to write my poems, I want to enjoy every second I spend on the roads every day. Driving as a maniac. I want to feel the pain inside me, I want to feel my hart bleeding and I want to know that I'm still alive living a life on this planet.

I don't want to be mad but I just want to be sad... I want to write...

Someone please make me sad, Well that's now if it's possible for a happy man to get sad. :)

And its offer

Okay so the game are played and now the world are back to normal. No more funny ppl walking around with gold hair in the streets.

Well the game was quite good "I think", Yes I'm not a big rugby fan or in fact I'm not a real big sport fan if it has no wheels and no engine. But I watched the game with a few of my dear friends and they played good.

Al tho I haven't really got the kick out of the game but more watching my friends while the game where on. Sitting there almost ready to jump into the TV and help them play. Screaming, stressing and even some tears running down there cheeks as they score.

Thanx for the entertainment :) I enjoyed it....

Let it out.....

Ever bottled every thing up in side of you, so much that your soul just feel that it can no more, you keep every thing for your self just don't know how to let go of it. As much as you would like to spill it out to some one you trust with your life you just cant. You just cant get your self to that point to do it, you make plans and when it gets there you cant do anything....

Well I have that problem, I keep everything to myself never letting go. It works, it keeps you happy but you always get to a limit. a Limit that just make you crack and that's never a good thing. Had one on a certain new years and my cabinet or what ever you call the thing have seen its last days. I had one more to the beginning of the year and had a fight with someone I don't want to fight with. It turned out great tho, for my life that is.

And then you just get those days you just burst into tears... Well that I get allot ( Lee you never read this ) just lying on your bed and snap, out comes the tears as every thing eats you out from inside. Your hart pains, your mind runs away with thoughts of what to do and how to stop the pain. Every person are different there as I tend to go for a search you hurt myself more. In that way when the pain goes away nothing bodders me anymore for a while tho, and unfortunately I used some one that could have been a wonderful friend for that. I miss her come to think about it.

Why are it so hard to let it all out, just lay back and let your soul take it all out and let it flow out as words. We all know it helps but still nothing. I started this blog out as something I wanted to let go, me and Lee discussed something a bit earlier involving one of her friends and I realized something, something that I were searching the answer for since I can remember. She just made me to realize that I know why, I have had the answer all these years but just never wanted to admit it to myself. Now I have I admitted it to myself but have now just realized that its more a fear than anything else.

Yes I have fears... As afraid as I am for a small little horsey as afraid as I am of small little rooms, well if you can call that a fear.

Strange how ppl can help you and don't even know they did, or what they done. Now just to get past it as hell knows there's no way in hell I'll get closer than 5 meters to horse.

Nothing but emptiness

Nothing..... Yes nothing that's all that's on my mind, there's nothing bordering me there's nothing I'm thinking of. It's just a clear plain of emptiness here. Well it was just one of those day's I woke up happy and I just turned like a pool of crystal clear watter when a bloody body gets dropped in. The way that the blood takes over the pool and soon its just red and nothing else, was a phone call this morning for me. From happy to just fed up for the day. I have had one of my worst days, just didn't want to do anything, didn't want to work, didn't want to speak and didn't want to think.

And still nothing, nothing to say nothing to type. My creative side are still sleeping and don't want me to bring it out yet. It likes the silence and it likes the dark.

Why are it always so hard to let go of things. I have this one wonderful and beautiful lady friend, Oh she's just adorable but she likes to torture her self by hurting her soul day to day. She's so unhappy with her man, she shed a tear everyday for him, she knows he's hurting her but still she stays loyal to him just because she cant let go. It has been two months now and from the start there were only things in the way of happiness in that relation ship. Yes she will not admit it but she knows it's true. Just let go... How I wish our moons were closer for me to show her what happiness could be.

To Reaver good luck and I hope for all the best.

5 Mins in between....

Hay there...

Yes I know it's been a long time since I said I'm back, Sorry for that but I got abit stuck between work, life and my new baby. Things are going so hectic at work this last while with all this rain and wind. It seems that the weather are affecting all my clients. And then just to boost everything a fast early morning golf driver forgot how to stay on the road and flew over a 12 feet wall and ripped off the 3 meter high electric fence on top of the wall (Unfortunately one off my sites), Luckily there were no damage to the wall.

Well whats new?? I moved into a nice cosy palace some where hidden in centurion with my work in my back yard. Then the high ligth off my current life, I got myself a new Baby. She's a beautifull black Jetta 4 V5 and just got her back from the tuner with a brand new stainless wildcat pipe and a Little piggy back programmable computer as an add-on to the factory chip... No warranty loss :)

Further more I'm missing my mommy.... NO just joking. I bought me a wonderful washer / dryer all in one thingy, some one told me I will need one to wash my clothes so I got myself one of those... Just to find out it's a total piece of junk!! The washer are great, fantastic but that dryer thing, I don't know if I'm just the stupid idiot that cant find away to get the darn thing working or if its actually the bad technology that just don't like me... Either way I CANT DRY MY CLOTHES... but I can cook a meal in the dryer.

Did I mention Trivian... Hell addictive game but playing for 2 months now and still I'm nowhere in the game....

He's back.....

Yip he's back....

The Grem is alive, awake and ready for all the strange things your weird world brings his way while he's searching for all the goodies needed to get his ship up and running again for him to take his tour thuther throu the never ending blackness of space untill his final destination has been reached where he will relax and enjoy the rest of his live with all of them who got onto his litle black ship going towards the space where man has never gone before searching for all that cant be found in a single life time as all life lines are to short and never finds there place in gaya nor space where all posibility's come to an end with the un completion for life it self with or without any rituals where life will spawn again to complete the never ending circle of life to be lived by may after the fisrt has been born for weirdness to life and strive throu those who chose the beter end of for what they are not to be for now and for ever after the day of gaya to be seen and hold for all that lives and not to be.....

Butterfly....

as i look out my window on the world
the things I saw, can not be told
children lying naked in the streets
young men deing for things, they don't believe
and a butterfly can flatter by my window

as i look out my window on the world
the things I saw, can not be told
no silver stream, no plain accross
just the war machines of steel and glass
and a butterfly can flatter by my window

so fly, litle butterfly
there's nothing here for you and I
a great big hole in a very big sky
Goodbye, litle butterfly
flying to, sky of blue
and leave it all behind
butterfly

as i look out my window on the world
the things I saw, can not be told
I saw the sun fade away
colour's fo the rainbow turned to gray
and a butterfly can flatter by my window

so fly, litle butterfly
there's nothing here for you and I
a great big hole in a very big sky
Goodbye, litle butterfly
flying to, sky of blue
and leave it all behind

dust to dust
is all has to maze
the ashes jug, has blown away
now great new hug, bright new day
no one hears to what i say
spread your wings in to the sun, and fly
and a butterfly can flatter by my window

so fly, litle butterfly
there's nothing here for you and I
a great big hole in a very big sky
Goodbye, litle butterfly
flying to, sky of blue
leave it all behind
butterfly

Not Enouth

Its been a long time, life has gone on
I'm still here and you're still there
Not much has change as for my dreams

Still dreaming about fast classic cars
Still dreaming for a life not here
Still dreaming wanting more and more

I geuse that will never change
My life will be all the same
With or with out I'll still be me

I'll still care for you to be
I'll still hope for some good
I'll still want more and more
I'll never have enouth

For my greed are stronger
And thats a batle I could not beat
The batle of my happyness and love
Loosing for years has come

Allway's wanting more when I got it all
Pushing all to the limit and over
Loosing everything everytime
There's no stop in me, not at all

Wanting more, needing more
Never to see that it's all perfect
I got enouth, I don't need more
That me know as day and night

Still I'm not satisfeid with all this
I want more, I need more for now and then
I need more forever, thats just me
Nothings ever enouth, Nothing ever works
I got to stop this, and now

I'm feeling I'm loosing again, just because
Just because of greed, envy and jaliousy
Damm this life, Damm this soul, Damm me...

Blessed Be!!

Alive or Dead

I'm sitting here not so sure
All seems fine for now at least
I feel so alive but yet it just can't be
To be so happy for all are true

Everything is here, I can feel
Everything is here, I can see

It's to good to be true
This have to be false
It just can't be, It's me
Am I alive or am I dead

I saw myself when still alive
I saw myself as dead like now
I'm living here just as you
I'm living here with out a soul

I'm as dead as alive can be
I'm a skeleton wraped in skin
With vains and blood running thru
A heart to keep me not going blue

But yet my soul is not here
My soul is lost somewhere I know
It's looking after you day by day
I'm just a zombie for my live's with you

I'm so happy as can be
For a man walking with half of him
You'll always be safe with my soul by you
So let it be for you to be you

My life makes no sence with out you
I'm as dead as can be with out you
And I know I don't have you

Blessed Be!!

Lonley Day

Such a lonely day

And its mine

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

Should be banned

This day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

Shouldn’t exist

A day that Ill never miss

Such a lonely day

And its mine

The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you

And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

Life

Such a lonely day

And its mine

A day that I’m glad I survived

(System of a down)

Blessed Be!!

A promise to be kept

Once apon a time
You made a promise to me
You said you'll always be
As silly as I am
I did believe

But time stepped on
And alot has changed
As you're not any more
The promise is broken
It's all you're fault

Why Why Why
Why did you chose to go
Why did you end this way
Why did you leave me all alone

I miss you to much
I need you to much
I have to do this
For me for you
This is the only way

The blade took it's path
Through skin and vain
Hope it's worth all the pain
For you to be again

I feel the blood moving
I see each drop falling
As the sand of your grave
Swallows it all one by one

My body gets weak
The flowers havy
It's close I can see
I just have to sleep

At last it's over
Now we can be again
As I ended for you're love
I done all this
For your promise to be true

An ye harm none, do what ye will
Blessed Be!!

Silence

Due to my silence on this blog, I have been trying to write my own templete and are so to say done. Have been bussy for a while on this and have just found out that this templete will not work but it will work on the old blogging system but not the new one.... :(

So this is back to the drawing board for me and hopefully I will crack the new xml coding for the blog soon. O what a time waste this was. O well thats life. some ya win some ya lose....

Blessed Be!!

Yeah another one....

As every body has all ready done one and there has been so many said at each one, I decided to bore you all once again with another V-day post. It sucks yeah I know, but in this one I would like to put forward a conclusion I found in the patterns of the comments in the other ppl's posts.

I have realized that on each post there are a similar pattern. Some say yes and are in favour for the wonderful day, some say no and rejects the overrated day of the year. If you go and look very closely to the comments you will realize that its the same kind of ppl rating the day with the same rating. Yes the Singles and the not so singles seems to create separate gangs.

All the Not so single ppl seems to think the day is all about advertising, making money and the fact that this day means nothing and are just a waste of time as each day should be for the love of your loved one... Well I do agree...

Then you have the singles, now the way I saw it is that all the single ppl are in favour of this spectacular day, this one day where day can get there courage and stand up to say "I Love You". Now for them this day are allot more for the rest as they do not have that special someone to love everyday. For them this day means more than just money, advertising and exposure... And again I have to agree.

So yes man kind have done it again to take a beautiful day and create it into a money game, as every other holiday you get in the year... Think about it, witch holiday are not just a money making game for man kind?? Think a bit back to the days you were single and all alone, didn't V-day make you excited?? didn't V-day mean something to you?? I'm sure it did... yeah so it was 10 years ago, or close buy and you might disagree, but then Can you really remember how it feels to be alone, to have no one and nobody?? to have been single for so long your almost insane?? I bet its a NO...

Just think about it... I know I'm in favour for V-day, although man has spoiled it with all there greed for money. But then again Christmas never meant anything to me until 2 Years ago Thanx for Lee that is. And last Christmas meant more than something ever did. again thanx to Lee and the wonderful pig who sacrificed himself for me to enjoy. Well of the point now.... But think a bit and you will realize what it could have meant for you to.

Blessed be!

Visit at the MD

Hay there peeps well tonight you guys don't get a pick as I'm just to lazy for that. Well yeah I were in a meeting with my MD today jumping over my boss straight thru to the main peanut in the peanut factory, demanding to resign as I got a very good over this morning. Everything whent great and I was officially resigned as of tomorrow. The the Owner and the MD had a meating and right afterwards my phone rang. "Darn what do he want now??"

I was told that he wants to sort this out and that he'll do anything. Okay I thought yeah right, before I could say anything he said that he knows that me and me boss does not sit around the same tabel and he also told me that I don't have to worry about that anymore as my boss fired and I have to look for someone to work under me... (anyone looking for a job??) And I have just last month got a R1000 raise, well geuse what I'm a happy employee at my old job again as I got exactly the half of my pay for a raise to day, Now I can't complain.

How in the world can I mean so much to them and not even know it?? What the hell do they see in me?? Well what ever it is, They just proofed to me today that they really want me there and that this is a place where I can built my future, so I decided that I'll stay and I'll stop looking for something else and see where this wonderfull path leads me. Who knows and I have also decided to begin to make some great investments. Lee we have to talk....

Blessed Be!!

Great Weekend!

Okay my weekend was wonderful and just magnificent. And I wouldn't even talk about the beauty of it all.

Fridays after work I went to pick up my fellow friend up so we can go thru to nelspruit. As I got there I met our personal entertainer for the trip down to nelspruit with his guitar and booze and we where off on flight Grem... The road till there were okay and we cruised down 180km/h average all the way, with a patch here and there that went more like 200km/h but it all went well and now just waiting to see for any tickets.

We got there after thinking we are going wrong way just to realize that me baby should become a 4x4 to enter the place, got in with no damage though. Parked and we First off all been showed where the bar is, and shown where's our room. And we were off, unpacking the car and started to drink and everybody jumped in the pool, well almost everybody. And yet some more drinking, playing some snooker and drinking, smoking and drinking, he he okay think you got the point. Last snooker game finished at about 4 (finally as no one could shoot a ball straight anymore) and of to bed.

Come Saturday about 7 or 8 in the morning and just heard a BANG!!!! Okay we have to get up... No wait back in bed my heads dieing here. Had a great breakfast and off we went. Coolers packed with the refreshers smokes in me pocket and a seat on the 4x4. Went to 4x4 thru the place and as Lani said, we stopped a few times. "What are we looking at? A bird. O again!" Well we saw a long neck creather at that stage and some birds. O yeah and don't forget the Cow but the trip was worth a lot more. Then THE CASTEL. WOW is all I can say, you guys have to see that place, it WOW. The guy took the Castle (Fort) of some kind that where there and are busy fixing it up. Now that was magnificent. then up to a bypass back home with some more bundubashing involved, stopped and all back in the pool can't blame them it was darn hot out there. With some more booze and booze.

Sunday we went for some more 4x4 on a mountain in "badplaas" and saw some.... yeah you know Birds... he he. O yeah before I forget, Saturday we got a single 12 gage shotgun in our hands and shot some fast flying clay pigeons, Now I think that’s the high light of my weekend although I one shot one out of the sky:( ...... back to Sunday, as we stopped at one stage we run into a bug called a "Tor" don’t know what the hell that is in English. Now this you had to see, we played fetch with the thing and I promise if it could have picked up the stones and rocks we thru at him he would have brought it back for us. It chased the the rocks all the way and came humming around us after words, and that when on for about 30mins. Well the day was great but didn't do anything else than riding out the dirt roads. Had some nasty weather and no power for the rest of the night.

Monday morning 2o'clock the road back to my normal boring home.... :(

But the weekend was great and one to remember for always... Thanx Allot...

Blessed be!!

It was great...

First off all I have to say that this place was excellent according to me and I would like to thanx my special lady friend for sugesting this place. I really loved the whole feeling of this place every thing neet and perfect. The lighting settings was just right with the litle candel in the middel of the table, well that was until some idiot asked to brighten things up. The food was fantastic and the service I have to say get a full A++

For my company that I had with me, one word...... Wonderfull. She was alot more than expected, I really really enjoyed my evening with her, I had a great time and would do it again any time. Thanx alot for the evening... I woke up this morning the first time in about 3months fully sleeped out, Not teierd nor lazy. Now I don't know why for that but I hope it lasts...

Yeah I'm a man with so to say no words tonight. Just wanted to let ya know that things whent well. Have a great weekend ppl. See ya all on monday again. hehe if only............

Blessed Be!

Confuzed World!!

Ones world can get so easely confuzed with all these ups and downs that life thro to us unwarned and unexpected, the darn bugger keep throing me agains the head just to spite me. Chasing you this way then that way up here down there and whallaaa Confuzed. (darn I cant remember what I wanted to say)...

At this stage I don't know where I am. I'm unhappy when it comes to work and just life. But there is thi shappy place I have now that keeps me up above every thing, No matter how mad you make me, how sad you make me or how unhappy I might feel. that litle happyness is keeping a smile on my silly litle face, Keeps a smile in my voice and keeps me so calm that it doesn't even bother me what you say or do. Now this is confuzing me. I Should be sad right now but hay I'm smilling and are very very joyfull.

Even though the bad are 1000 times more than the good, The good always win. hehe. Yeah I feel like that tree. Just relaxing in the sunset but at the same time deing in the cold dept of the world, killing me step by step, second by secondwith it low temputer. Hanging upside down as nothing makes sence thats going on, lost in every way that my mind can go, thoughts are running out faster than it takes my hair to turn gray (believe me thats so closes already... hehe) and last but not least as its the biggest thing keeping me on the go. Standing in the sunsine growing and becoming green feeding of all the bad and making it good. One goood thing like the sun for the tree can make your life the best there is.

P.S. Beware to much can be bad too, if a tree only have sun it would burn to death.

An ye harm none, do what ye will.
Blessed be!!

NOSjunkie becoming a GAMEjunkie....

Okay so yeah maybe for you peeps this means nothing, But for me and my buddy Stiffy this means the world. Come one Lee is playing a game WOW!!! And even more is the fact that she consitrate so much that when me and DW speak to her she hears nothing. And then she always said she dont like playing games and she gets irretated playing them.


But give her some purple dragons and fluffy flying creaters to shoot and she's as happy as a puppy...

O ain't life great, things just happen to you when you never expected it. Things get found when your lost.

Sorry peeps that I haven't been posting for a while but I have so much problems with my internet these last few days, couldn't connect and if it did it always just disconnected again in a few mins...
I know I ow you all a decent post and I know that Mr. Marra can't wait for some dark suff but I have to say at this stage I'm a bit to happy for things like that. Sorry Marra.... LOL
I will post a decent topic and post soon. Hopefully after the middle of the week it will be done... Don't know yet still waiting for an answer, That reminds me have to ask if its a yes or a no....

Blessed Be!

Mind Cleared

I've been gone for this weekend, wel away from home and all the normal places in my life... Now with that I jave treid to clear my mind so I had to be alone to do this. Just to get every thing out thats in there and trouhing every thing in the trash can when I got it all out, Yip it all is going to the dumps... It's time that old Gremmy becomes him self again, Just a litle freak with legs... and well as hard as it maybe, this is gonna happen again and very very soon.

Well friday was still my normal boring life at home. And all the fun started on saterday. Okay I must admit that saterday was just one hell of a big mess in my mind. As I sat there all alone in a dark litle room, my mind began to go places, places bad and evil, places sad and morbid, places that just made me so down and depressed it just isn't true. But with all that it is something that had to happen and I'm glad it did. It made me realize whats really going on in my life and what really count in my life... Hell I can go on with my life as a sad and morbid person or I can do so as a happy litle freak just running around and enjoying life...

Sunday was a great sucess thou. I woke up sunday with a smile on my face hapy to just be. Now doesn't that sound better. Yeah I smiled early in the morning, thats something I haven't done for a while, But now thats coming back. I reallized that there's so many good things in my life that I chose to ignore as I was looking for all bad things to kleen on. Well ppl I'm as happy as can be on this moment. Yeah sure there will still be dark and morbid things happening here on my blog, but thats just because I love it...

Well I still have till thuesday to sort every thing out thats still bodering me but that will be done... From thuesday on I'll be the old litle Gremlin with his split personality's... The good and the evil... hehe. Well some will know what I'm talking about.

Well I'll proberly have to end this as I'm not writing a noval here. So to all my minions, have a great and fantastic day I really hope you'll enjoy it as much as humanly possible.

An ye harm none, do what ye will!
Blessed Be!!

P.S. Hope your okay Sammy...

Cool Leason!!

Hay peeps. I have learned a cool leason yesterday and its worth every second of the pain. I always thought that you will bleed to death if you cut of a body part with out any medical treatment after wards, but I was wrong. I have learned that if you use a grinder to cut that body part off you will not bleed to death... as a grinder burn its way through and dont really cut.

Yeah I learned this the hard way by almost cutting of my finger, it looked so cool. It looks like a hole in your hand, no blood no nothing just a hole as every thing has been burned and sealed.
Okay yes its darn swore as its half way throu the bone but no blood. hehe

And I have found a "stick a stich" its a plaster doing the job of a stich, two three days more and you would never say it was that deep. it has already begin to heal and the skin has attached it self to each other as long there is no strain, other whise it just pull open again, Gosh Have to love these "stick a stitch" I'll never have to go to a docter again... Yippeeee.....

HEHE okay have to cut this short, the weather is treing to kill my pc with all its lightning bolts. Chat soon.

Blessed be!!

Price Less!!

So I got up this morning knowing this will be a normal working day for me. Yes I will go in to work, have my cup of sugarless coffy, go and sit down and sort out my day and beening sh@ted on... Guese what exactly that happened, so as I standed there while my boss were getting his temper up and shouting at me as if I just made his litle girl pregnant, I was thinking now what will be the coolest way of resigning?? mmmmm.....

Well yeah I resigned today, you had to see it, I never thought that one's eye's can open that wide. Now have you seen how a meeting get orginized in 1sec? Have you ever had your boss on his knees for you?? Well I can say I had. I resigned and I was begged over and over and over to stay, he was on his knees in front of me for some silly reason, begging me to stay saying sorry over and over. mmmm....... I wonder if I should?? Nope sorry mind made up. Well they are offering me a better package tomorrow, Changing things for me. Lets see what happens tomorrow. but What ever happens I'm so sure I'm still leaving.

Why do ppl never care of whats around them? What they have until its to late?? Why sould ppl be blind and just care about them self, Gosh I hate mankind, so self centered, every thing is only going about them selfs and no one else... I believe if you look after your ppl or friends they will look after you. so why keep everything for your self? Because your better than us?? Well the hell with you...

Blessed be!!

Lazy Weekend....

Hi there all my fellowers of the ring of life... O what a weekend, I cant remember when last I was as lazy as this one thats just past, it's not like me to be so useless for a whole weekend. I really just wasted some good air.

Lets see Friday was a horroble day at work. My boss that has resigned on thursday had decided to pull his resignation back and just took some sort notice leave. But with this whole excircise he done here there where a few things that just dissapeared from my van stock and 90% of my tools are also gone. Well friday night I thought of going to Miss Lee and Mr DW freak just to go and say hi, well my baby thought that she don't wanna drive and there where just nothing I could do about it. So I stayed at home and done nothing in front of the tv on my futon.

Well saterday.... I got up at about 10 and I just quiclky fixed my baby and took a litle trip to my fellow freaks as I have been missing the two litle buggers.Been there for about an hourjust standing there listenning at DW blaberbox that he calls a mouth (hehehe). Went home from there and just walked till the TV and down with me. For the rest of the weekend I imagined
that I'm a mushroom just lying there in the dark coner growing on everything my hands could get to eat... Sunday guese what I was still laying there doing nothing had no sleep as I was bussy the whole weekend just watching movies.

So yeah, I really treid to just lay there and built up some penicillen for the week but for some strange reason those things just dont wanna grow on me, I treid everything, lying there in a dark damp cold corner and still nothing. hehe

hehe well something that did happen this weekend is that my boss had made my mind up for me. I'm resigning tomorrow as I had enought of his sh@t, I can't take it anymore I'm on the virtual point to just grab a something and beat the living sh@t out of him. So in stead I'll just resign and walk away, as far as possible away from him. Luckely my interview on friday went good but its not a done case yet, so I just hold my thumbs that, thats ganna happen or well I'll just have to make the best of being workless. Well things cant really go worse than it are so what the hell.....

And ye harm none, do what ye will.
Honor, Responsibility and Duty Always!
Strength be to me and to thee.
Blessed be!!

This is not a good start....

Hi there all. yeah this is 2007 another year has past and still sitting at the same place than last year this time. No wait I'm acctually a bit lower than last year. hehe

Well lets see what happened this year so far. mmmmm I got teired of my wonderfull boss and all his crap. But then he has just resigned today so I have to take over and I have to try and do my own work but I just dont get time to do every thing. I'm running around like a mad cow with two legs and wings on his head. Darn ppl just think every thing takes no longer than 5mins to finnish. But the good news off it all is that I may have a interview tommorow. Hope fully there will happen something so that my life can get back on track, Cant waste another year. Really the only thing happened last year was all my good friends I made.... Now that made everything worth while.

My baby.... Well I dont really wanna start with her, after all the love and care I gave her last year she still dont love me as much as I love her. As I stair into her big shiny eye's in the morning when I wake up, with her red hair giving off that golden shine as soon the sun light toutches her perfectly shaped boddy, *sigh* Oh all the money spend last year to keep her happy, all my hard work and all my effort for nothing.... hehe ne not that bad. after I done her motor and had her running like a baby again she decided that she wants to rest a bit more and I had to replace the whole suspention, after that was fixed and 100% she decided that her power steering should not work anymore..... Oh I give up... One thing after another... Just never stops does it???

Well enoth with all my mouning and grouning.... Enjoy your year peeps. Hope to hear alot from ya all and hope that you all will sucseed in what your dreaming.

OH yeah Lee. I knewyou can do it.....